Friday, April 10, 2009

Before I fall over from exhaustion

I am tired...TIRED.
I am home, just got here and feel very guilty I am not at Andy's bedside. I know there is nothing I can do but stare at him...like that is doing any good...and I need my rest. if not for me, for Rigg. So here I am. This has been the hardest part of the day...trusting God to take care of him overnight while I am away.

Easier said than done.

Wait on the Lord...Trust.

I am trying. But I had to force myself.

It was very hard to see Andy after his surgery. He is still not shaken the "knock-out" meds. He is very groggy and when we saw him earlier he was not moving the right side of his body or talking. Since then they have given him a CT scan (came back great) and his Dr. came back to check him.
He passed with flying colors...well, sorts. He griped with his right hand, held u 2 fingers with is right hand and wiggled his right toes. He also raised his right leg and whispered his name.

It is so hard to see such a big guy, a strong guy, my superman...so weak and incoherent. I sat in his room and cried for awhile. I think it was the relief as well as the reality of it all setting in. We have hit the ground running and been living warp speed since Tuesday morning. This was the first time I have to process everything that is going on.

I want to walk into his room and have him sit up and chat with me...and it takes a lot of effort to even get him to open his eyes.

Patience.

Wait.

Trust.

NOT EASY!!!!

Please continue to pray...by the way, INCREDIBLY overwhelmed by the number of comments and people praying. We are so blessed....but now that I have your attention....let us continue to petition the Lord on High with requests. Let's be specific and use scripture...what God has already said, we can count as done.

Specifically you can pray that Andy's recovery would continue to progress. That he would shake the "knock-out" meds and wake up. That he would continue to gain strength in his right side and would start to speak.
That all throughout he night God would cradle Andy and watch over him.
That I would be calm and peaceful and be able to sleep, for me and the baby.

Thank you so much brothers and sisters in Christ...one day I will get to thank you face to face. But until that day, let us join together as one body and worship the Lord.

35 comments:

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

Reading your story and praying for your family....this Easter weekend.

Carla said...

Praying in Columbia, Maryland in the matchless name of Jesus!

Carla

Justin said...

Sounds as if things are progressing well. We will keep praying for Andy "the tank" Chastain. Debby loves your reliance on God and your transparency with us all. It is amazing what God is doing through you.

The Kelly's said...

I'm so glad things went well today. We are praying for you guys!!! Get some rest tonight.

Chrys said...

You don't know me but I'm praying for you in Texas.

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope. Romans 15:13

Chrys

Jill said...

Thoughts and prayers to you from SC. Rest you mind and body tonight all will be fine.

Jill

Amber Schmidt said...

Prayers from Kentucky... be sure to take care of yourself too!

Anonymous said...

I read Kelly's blog and saw her prayer request. Praying for you and your family.

Jacie said...

I'm am glad things are loooking a bit better for you and your husband. I have to admit that I sat here shocked when I read what happened to him. I just coudn't believe it.
It must be hard to relax. Probably impossible. But I dearly hope everything continues to get better, for you, your husband, and your baby.
You are such a beautiful person. Molly and I both think so. I have been praying for you and your family, and will continue to do so.
~Jacie

MemeGRL said...

Came to you from Kelly, the prayer generator! Holding you in our hearts in prayer. My sister in law had very, very similar surgery Oct. 07 and you would never, ever know it today if you had known her "before" and saw her now and she didn't mention it. And to a lot of people, she doesn't. I hope the same for you. Blessings to all of you!

our family said...

Just found your blog through Kelly's Korner.
Praying for you all during this time. it is so hard to understand why you have to go through so many trials in such a short time. Praying for your husbands complete recovery. Praying for you to get some rest and for Riggs to keep growing and stay put until his daddy is doing well.
Hugs and Prayers
Rachel

Stephanie said...

Coming over from Kelly's Korner. I'm praying for your husband and your entire family!!!!

May God be with you tonight and may he watch over your husband. Sending you love and prayers from SC

Melissa823 said...

I'm a stranger to you, but praying for you all in Pittsburgh, PA! I'll be following up! God bless you with peace, health and strength for all of you! -Melissa

Judy said...

I'm sure my little girl will be getting me up at some point in the middle of the night :) so you can count on me praying for your family through these midnight hours! Praying for complete restoration for Andy! You just take care of that sweet babe inside you. That's what Andy would want.
God's timing in all things is perfect and I think of that even with Andy's surgery. This weekend is a reminder to us of what scripture says "by HIS stripes we are healed." Jesus already accomplished that healing on the cross, let's claim it for Andy!

Jill said...

Just found your blog and have been praying all day and will continue to!! I admire your amazing faith.

Jeremiah said...

Just heard of your story from Kelly. Our hearts break for you and all the while we know that this is only temporary. Temporary, but it sure can't feel like it right now. We don't know you but we are related through Jesus! We praise Him for the work He is doing. We praise Him that inspite fo the fact that satan would have you defeated, you are still trusting and obeying the One who holds our time in His hands. We pray that He sings sweet lullabies over both of you as you rest tonight and that you wake up refreshed and ready to meet the day and that the Spirit would guide you in all you day!

Richard said...

Thank you for your brutal honesty Cari. I will continue to pray. . .

Julie said...

praying for you in N.C. and have a team praying for you in Rochester. Wish I could give you a hug.

The Dennie Family said...

Praying for your family.

Alison said...

I found you from Kelly's blog. I'm thinking and praying for you and your family. You are so strong!

Maire said...

Hi Cari, found your blog through another, I am so sorry for all the heartbreak you are going through...praying for you all. I know how hard it is to see a loved one so sick, my husband has throat cancer...you just keep praying to be strong...take care, Maire

Kate said...

I just found your blog and am reading your posts from the last few months. Your family is in my prayers!

laura said...

Praying!

SW WI MOMMY

jskcaesquivel said...

praying for you and your family!! ~Sarah~

Annie said...

My husband and I are praying from Seattle.

We pray that your husband is COMPLETELY healed. That you are covered in a peace that surpasses ALL understanding. And that your baby is healthy, happy and BLESSED!

Praise God for the internet and for the connection between followers of Christ through this world of blogs!

Anonymous said...

Cari,

I'm up to feed the little one...wanted to catch your blog before we leave for Maryland. WOW! What a relief to know that Andy is progressing and you are (hopefully) getting some rest. Mike and I will continue to pray for continual movement in Andy's right side, shaking the meds, and being able to communicate through speech...what wonderful words you will hear! Barb and Mike Hendershot

Knitting Mummy said...

Hi, you don't know me I came to your blog via another, but just wanted to let you know I am praying for you and your family here in the United Kingdom.
God Bless.
Amanda.

Daniela said...

Last night I read your blog from start to finish. I cried, I laughed and cried some more. Prayers are going up for your dear husband from my family here in North Carolina. God bless you.

Bethany said...

I am totally stalking your blog to updates on prayer requests. Thank God, for the progress he has made. I will continue to be praying for his complete healing. Praying Scripture over you both.

T Sharee said...

Praying in Tennessee, and will continue! You are doing everything right, continue to trust God and all will be well.

Gail said...

I will continue to pray for you and Andy. Isaiah 58:11 " The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail."

Claire said...

Cari - Praying that God will bring you and Andy strength and peace during this time.

Claire

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and Andy in this hard time.

Anonymous said...

I found you from Kelly's Korner blog, and I will be praying for you and Andy.

Anonymous said...

Just wanted to let you know I am praying for you all.

Stacie