Days seem to run together.
It is almost April...2010. Really? 2010? Where have I been?
In my mind I still look like I did when I was 19, however when I see myself in the mirror...when I really look...laugh lines... a less chiseled jaw line... a size larger hangs in my closet.
I can easily forget how many responsibilities I have accumulated. In some moments I lose myself and remember what it is like to leave and go shopping. No extra bag to pack, no one get ready but myself... not needing to ask permission or re-evaluate a budget...just shop.
I can almost feel what it was like to be newly married, carefree... I can taste it on the tip of my tongue because it was not so long ago.
but kind of a lot's happened since then
How quickly I forget. Happy, busy, giggly days filled with housework, naptimes, diaper changes... life happens and you keep pressing on.
and today I realized it is almost April...
I am no longer 19... nor do I look like it. I am not free do drive off into the noonday sun and spend half a paycheck on the new spring line at the LOFT. I have had to wipe poop off little bottoms more times today then yesterday, proving once again, glamorous is not in my new job description.
today, with a kind of slap in the face reality check, I realized it was almost April,
and more then anything, I wish she were here.