Saturday, November 24, 2012

The Captain's tumor




Part of me cannot even believe I am typing this...

Part of me wants to scream and yell and put my fingers in my ears while humming and singing "I'm not listening!"

Another part of me is praying... pleading... quite possibly begging God to miricle this away.

We found out earlier today the Captain's tumor is back.

Andy hasn't been feeling well for awhile. He's been here...but not here. Finally today he looked at me and said I needed to take him to the ER, something wasn't right.

SO we went to the ER. Had a CT scan... which showed a mass. A MRI confirmed that his tumor along with a large cyst are growing in his left frontal lobe, causing major headachs and other unfun stuff.

Surgery is scheduled for Monday afternoon at 2pm (ish)

Prayers greatfully (joyously and jealously) accepted.

I want to be bright and sunny and positive... but I am not feelin' it right now. The tumor looks to be cancerous and the surgeon has to leave some behind. To try to get it all would leave lasting injury to Andy and his brain.
Cancer left in the brain is never good.

But GOD IS!

God is good. And I know God loves both the Captain and me very much.

2 things keep coming to mind today...
John 9:3b "but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him."
and
In Daniel 3 Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego  were going to be tossed into the fiery furnace and they said that they knew God would save them... but even if He didn't that they would still do what was right.

I want God's glory to be displayed... and I want to do what is right even if God doesn't do a miracle.

I want to have a heart that accepts WHATEVER He wants for me.

So I am praying:
1. that Jesus comes back... very soon.
2. that God would preform a miracle in this circumstance. That He would cure Andy before, during or after the surgery.... whatever that might look like.
3. that He gives me a heart that desires His will above my own.
4. for the Captain... his comfort, peace and health.
5. for my boys...

Please pray with us.
I am so thankful for those who love us from near and afar.
We love you, too.

PRAY!

Lord, come quickly...



32 comments:

Unknown said...

Praying for you and your family! May God be with you always and forever!!!!

linda said...

praying, praying and praying some more...please know i will keep you all in my prayers daily...and will beg God for his mercy on your behalf.

Lindsay said...

I know I'm commenting/texting everywhere. My heart is just breaking because I can only imagine how you're feeling. I will be praying for all that you requested and more, and we are putting on our prayer list at church so other can join in as well. I know there is only so much we can do from so far away, but if there is anything at all that we can do, we're here and willing. <3

Erin said...

I am so sorry you are going through this again! Praying for complete healing! Our God is a God of healing!! Praying for your husband and boys, but also for you...how strong you are!

Maryellen said...

Oh my. . . I'm so sorry you have to face this again.

Praying from New Jersey -
I will add you to every prayer list I know . . .

Please keep us updated if you are able.

Shannon said...

Hi Cari,

You do not know me, but I have been following for a long time...since the first time...

Tears! Praying fervently for Andy and for you. No words can really be of help, but prayers and more prayers.

Anonymous said...

Praying for your sweet family.

dbdsk said...

Hi Cari...

You and your sweet boys and delightful Captain will be in my mind and prayers as you travel this very bumpy road. How blessed you are to have a Captain who loves the Lord and his family! I will pray for wisdom for the doctors as they perform surgery on Monday. I will pray for healing from a God who is all powerful! And I will pray for you as you are a mom to two young boys and a strong advocate for your husband as he travels through the medical maze. A lot to balance. God knows. God is with you. ... and many people are praying.

Brittany..Following my Bliss said...

Lifting you, the captain and your boys in prayers through the coming days.

Ma said...

I'm so sorry, I'm praying too.

Samantha said...

Joining with you in continuous prayer over the Captain and everything else. Love, hugs, and praying for peace in these circumstances...xoxo

Amber Waves Of Grain said...

Praying for God's grace on your sweet family.

Unknown said...

I have been following your story since you started the blog. Prayers for healing and peace being lifted up from Brentwood, TN.

kristi said...

Our prayers for a miracle. Our prayers for God's love and peace.

Boyka said...

My dearest Cari! I know how you feel and my heart is bleeding...I am praying for our dear Andy and I know God will be with him, with you, with us!I have asked all my firends here, in Bulgaria, in Russia, in England, Canada and China to pray.
Love your wonderful family!

The Sabo's said...

We will absolutely be thinking about you and Andy tomorrow and hoping that the surgery can get as much as possible and get him an excellent prognosis for the future.

Lots of love and hugs,
The Sabo's

Stephanie said...

I am heartbroken for your family. I don't even have words. As a wife to a husband who had cancer at a young age(39), I know your pain. I wish neither of us did. I am storming the heavens with prayers. God is good all the time. Praying that he will heal the Captain, prayers for the surgeons hands, prayers for your hearts.

Prayers from Texas
Stephanie

Marguerite said...

Andy and Cari,
I will be praying alongside these many others who are lifting you before Our Father. God is a very present help in time of trouble (Psalm 46) - - the God Who was the mighty fortress for David and Hezekiah is the same God Who shields you right now. You will not slip out of His sight -He holds you steadily in His loving gaze. Your cries to Him join the very prayers of Jesus, Who is interceding in your behalf right now. He is mighty to save, and those who look to Him for help will not be ashamed. May He deliver you from every fear.
Confident in His grace toward you,
Marguerite (friend of Jenny J)

DustyandBrooke said...

I've followed your blog since you lost your sweet girl. I've always been absolutely amazed at your strength, your honesty in your struggle, and most of all, your faith. You and your family have been heavy on my heart since I saw this news yesterday. Please know that you have big prayers coming from Alabama. Your family is already an inspiration to many. I'm praying that your Captain's doctor's hands be led by Him tomorrow and that you get great news after surgery. I'm praying for strength and peace for you, your husband, and your family.

Kate said...

I am so sorry to hear this. I'm praying for a miracle for Andy and your family.

Brian Porter said...

Andy - praying for you today man...

Crosby said...

Oh Andy and Cari!!! Our hearts and prayers go to you as you battle this. We will be battling in prayer with you. Words cannot express....
Love you!
Brian and Cathy Crosby

The Buchanan Family said...

I hate this more than anything for ya'll. Praying for ya'll!

Emily Bastine said...

Andy and Cari,

We are praying for God's mighty hand to be your strength and your comfort today.

Love,

Gabo and Emily (Mexico City, Mexico)

Jill said...

I've been following your blog for a long time now. I don't comment much though :( but I have to let you know today how sad I was to read this latest news and to let you know that I am praying for you and your family. I can't imagine the feelings and emotions you are going through. Praying for God's moment by moment grace for you!

Rachael said...

Praying here in France!

Love, Crosby Family

Angie said...

Your family is in my thoughts. From Michigan.

Anonymous said...

Thought of you just now and hoped the surgery went well.

krueth said...

Praying for you all in MN.

Anonymous said...

I prayed for your family at church yesterday and have said prayers throughout today. God Bless all of you!

Just Me - The Champion said...

Cari! It's me Jen... It's been a while a friend of mine told me about your post regarding Andy! She is sharing it with our women's ministry at our church so we can all pray for you! Lord Jesus! I'm praying Isaiah 40:31 for you. You are precious, you are good, you are loved. So is Andy and so are your boys. Provide a miracle Jesus! Come quickly! Sending love and praying for holy spirit grace and peace.

Anonymous said...

Many prayers lifted upon your behalf...Murfreesboro, Tennessee.