Still here

Oh, yes, I am still alive. No worries.

This is wedding week...the sis is getting hitched in 2 days! Lots to do, not so much time to do it in...you know how it is.

I have been spending some time sorting and filing pictures on the computer. We lots more than I remembered. It has been fun and emotionally draining. Love seeing the pics of my kids, bit I hurt to now that pictures are the only way I can see Caden. Tears and smiles, separately and together, all mixed up....like my thoughts and feelings. Happy, sad, laugh, cry, up, down. Sheesh!

I was chatting with a lady the other day. She was telling me how she had all of her kids together for dinner at a Steak N Shake...She has 4...kids, not Steak N Shakes...anyhoo...her kids are scattered all over the globe, and she had them all together for dinner. She had tears in her eyes as she relayed the tale. So did I. Because the only thing I thought of was that I would never experience having all of my children together for dinner...never. Some families get this privilege every night. I will never have it, not once. So we stood in a crowded hall with tears in our eyes, me and this lady. I am sure she thought I was a lovely compassionate woman, as I was empathizing with her and her story...she didn't now about Caden. So many people don't...what a shame, she was worth knowing.

Know who else is worth knowing...the Riggster.

How was that for a super lame transition?

But he is. And I have been having some fun with him and my baby cousin.

Crakes me up! I really do laugh out loud at how stupid some of the expressions are! They are really going to be fun in a couple of months...and I will be super tired for chasing them around all day!

Rigg is such a chill baby. He hardly ever cries, and he is just starting to smile...once in a blue moon. I think he might be a serious little man, so I will cherish every smile I get, and hope it is in reaction to seeing me, and not just from gas...

Either way, smile or no, he is a good looin' kid.

Well, he is when his mama isn't laughing and taking pictures at his expense...